I have to say that there was no real 'journey' except away from atheism somewhat. I remember arguing with my mother over whether there was a God or not when I was six years ago (I was a non-believer then, it is strange but many of 'my' 'attitudes' I can see are rooted in the myself that I first can remember long ago at the beginning of my conscious life... I've pretty much always had a pretty existentalist worldview... I can't explain it but that cosmology always 'made sense' to me). I didn't even realize people really believed in the Bible (as in really believed) until I discovered the internet age 13.
But I'm pretty disillusioned with Atheism now.
Out of interest what would you consider yourself ? (and I know you're not one for labels 
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I pretty much hate defining myself... so you have put me on the spot. I would say I suffer from Jaded Intellectualism towards everything (incl. religion) and a manic dislike of the pseudo-intellectual puffery that is 'new Atheism' (ie. Sam Harris, Dawkins, Hitchkens, et cetera, et bloody cetera). What I am... I don't really know. I don't think I am anything... I just happen to have alot of things.
But if want me to stop being so obtuse: non-believer. In Everything.
I actually feel largely the same way. As time goes on, the less certain I am that there is anything I genuinely believe in & the more certain that the bulk of my worldview is informed solely by my reactions against various things that I find repellant.
The question then to ask is: Is that a sign of emptiness?
Only if you let it be. We are where we are; if you can find fulfillment in life, then you've done well for yourself, but you can only make meaning for yourself.
