the text conversation
her: I think we're going to be good friends for a long long time.
me: Church today?
her: yeah. i prayed for you..
me: sh**t what did you say
her: nothing bad.. sorry
me: I'm not mad. but you should try to reconcile with me first (maybe you already have) before you take it to God. He gave up on me a long, long time ago and I can't say I blame him.
her: i dont think He gave up. i just think you did
me: It was a mutual decision. we are both better off. eternal separation from God (the original definition of Hell) just doesn't bother me. I think I basically know what you prayed for, and, look... if I find inner contentness, meaning, and happiness, it's going to come from myself, not from God. and certainly not from anything I read in His f***ing book of things not to do.
her: i didn't tell him to give you anything, just to help you
me: I'd prefer it if you helped me. you have done much more for me already that He has, and you're MUCH better looking.
her: ha well how do you know God isnt female?
me: Your bible says so. I don't believe God exists but I am speaking of Him as a concept for the purposes of this conversation.
her: youre annoying
me: But am I still interesting?
her: yeah you are ugh
we're basically in love with each other but circumstances prevent us from being together
If you were trying to convince us you're an asshole, operation successful!
I was gonna post something like that. If someone cares for you and says so the very least you can do as a decent human being is refraining from wanting to kill that person.
But, anyway, touched. Of course, I'm not gay or anything so I've never experienced the whole "I'm praying for you, since I'm pretty sure you're going to hell on your current course" business. I imagine that would be a bit insulting.