Update XVI: Sidejackin' it in the Train Room.

[AkSaber]

Why do you put yourself on an emotional rollercoaster about everything?

Your GF was the best thing ever to happen to you and you were never going to leave her side. Now, she's history and you're trying your best to pretend she never mattered to you.

Your job as the greatest blessing to happen to you in a long time and now you're committed to walking away.

I'd say the stress of going overboard with overly-zealous devotion is not worth it. I hope you learn to not put yourself through it anymore.

And, if you're at work 8-9 hours a day, with 1-2 hours at home, getting ready for your work day, that's still at least 5-6 waking hours at your disposal. That's plenty of time to do meaningful employment searches. I know, spending your off-time relaxing or goofing around on the internet, watching tv or listening to music, are difficult habits to break. But, you need to learn to do so. That's part of adulthood: learning to put responsibilities in front of recreation. We've all had to learn to do that. Children put recreation before responsibilities. Adults have to do the opposite.

Take care and God be with you.

[AkSaber]

You can imagine the stigma when you tell your family and friends you are seeking help because an internet forum told you to.  They would tell you you've lost your mind, completely.

Then don't tell your real-life friends and family. If the psychiatrist tells you you're fine, then nobody ever has to know. If he wants you to come back regularly and you want to tell your real-life people (which you still wouldn't have to do), you can tell them you realized you had a problem and went on your own. That will be impressive, not embarrassing, to the people who love you.

True. You're under no obligation to tell anyone you made an appointment to see a mental health doctor. There's a reason patient confidentiality is so sacred to those doctors.

[AkSaber]

Maybe you're just extremely dehydrated? Try slamming two glasses of water maybe?

[AkSaber]

Please have some water right now. Two glasses. It'll take you all of twenty seconds.

[AkSaber]

Eating can certainly be fun, or at least a pleasurable activity. The trick is getting off the junk food that makes up 100% of Bushie's meals. There's no reason proper food shouldn't be a joy to eat.

^^^^^^^^^^^

So f@&%ing true! When you view food as something which is only supposed to be deep-fried, unnaturally loaded with salt, sugar, sodium, ect, is a very dangerous lifestyle to live.

But, when you change your view of food, as something which is supposed to sustain your body, then the "unfun" choices suddenly become enjoyable to eat.

[AkSaber]

Jeff, why don't you play with that computer/CADD program that your parents bought you tonight instead of watching football?

I'm worried that you're not quite getting this CADD stuff.

[AkSaber]

I refuse to switch solely to water. 

PLEASE reconsider

http://dailyhealthpost.com/this-is-what-happens-in-your-body-when-you-drink-a-coke/

[AkSaber]

Were you diagnosed by a physician?