CCSF, have you ever considered getting on the "gay to straight conversion" speaking circuit? You might find it to be a lucrative venture, and you seem to have the skillset for it.
I don't believe in conversion being a possibility - but if I could, I would
I just can't believe you are actually gay. Like, have you ever had a gay experience? I assume not because I doubt you'd want to change after. Trust me, when I was like 14 I wished I was straight and then I met some people who were also gay, I kissed boys, I had sex with boys and now the prospect of being straight is truly disgusting to me. Honestly, even if it is against your religion living a life where you hate what you are is going to do no one any favours.