The Update for Everybody Else

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Quiet but peaceful day for me.  I've been painting my self-portrait for the last couple hours, and I'll probably use some time to read and get back to writing my novel.


You have my best wishes, Nathan, and don't read the rest of this post unless you'd like to.  Seven years ago I was going through similar heartbreak with my then-sick dog, who at the time, had been about five years older than me, and I still remember coming home from school one day to hear the bad news.  I know how it feels, but I can't begin to imagine going through what you are right now.  Take comfort in the fact that your old friend lives on in peace and happiness, and that although this chapter of your life is over, you can start anew one day with someone else.

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As some of you (the IRC crew) know, I've liked this girl for a couple of months. We went to prom together as friends, she's pretty much aware how I feel, and I'm 99% sure she just sees me as a friend, which I can accept. Still, my feelings are bogging me down and probably keeping me from pursuing more...viable relationships. Should I just tell the girl how I feel and that I understand it isn't mutual so as to help let it go?

Bro, just ask her. Don't start presuming, just ask anyway and go after another girl. The biggest mistake I ever made in high school was getting hung up over a girl for two years.

That's probably the best course of action, but on the other hand I feel it could be redundant (again, my infatuation is a terribly-kept secret) and could potentially dent our friendship.

The friend zone is not a nice place.

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I just told a girl who graduated from my high school (also lost a parent) last year that I had a crush on her and still do.  She said she isn't in a position to be with anyone right now, but I'm glad I told her.  I also told her I plan on chatting with her more often and that we should meet up one day to reconnect.

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I was talking to the girl I like (Liz) again last night about college.  Since I'm likely moving to the state she's attending college at, I wanted to know what things are like where she goes.  She said she was at a concert and that we could talk about it later.  I said, "okay."

Almost 24 hours later; no new messages.

Gulp.

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I was talking to the girl I like (Liz) again last night about college.  Since I'm likely moving to the state she's attending college at, I wanted to know what things are like where she goes.  She said she was at a concert and that we could talk about it later.  I said, "okay."

Almost 24 hours later; no new messages.

Gulp.

Patience. Every reason you think is causing the delay is wrong. It's something completely innocent and normal. Fear not, puissant paladin.

That's what I'm hoping.  What I don't know is how long I should wait before messaging her again.  I don't want to come across as an obsessed stalker.

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So I had a talk with the girl again... bad news for me is that she said she isn't interested in having a relationship anyone (not just me), and that she's kind of in the market for having a girlfriend only.  I asked her if she wouldn't mind me looking for someone else and she encouraged me to.  So, I guess this one doesn't end on a high note, but she didn't reject me just for me, and I guess I should be thankful for that.

In other news, I've been vigorously looking for a purpose to fulfill now that my father's gone.  My novel is in development hell since I can't be creative when I'm depressed, so I'm putting that aside for a while.  I'm going to attend the local ELCA church in Monroe this Sunday, and I intend on applying in their Lay Ministry program as either an assistant minister, communion assistant, usher, acolyte, or lector, if I decide that it's the right church for me.  It's probably not a paying job.  I don't care if it is.  All I'm looking for right now is love... and a purpose in life.

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After a hearty dinner of bourbon and steak last night, I have peed 3 times and took a massive shat, I dropped 2.068 pounds and weigh in at 334.643 pounds. At this rate I will be down to my desired weight of 165 in just a few months.  Thank heaven!!!!   No brief relaxations to report. 

Are you incorporating exercise into this "diet" of yours?

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I'll be meeting with my uncle's minister (who apparently knows of me and my situation from their personal conversations) sometime this or next week.  From what I've read, he's a very remarkable, progressive Congregationalist minister who shares my interest in promoting LGBT tolerance within the Christian community.  I'm hoping he can give me an idea of what to do over the coming years, both emotionally and in terms of possible ministerial vocations.

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Just got home from the hospital... now my grandmother's passed away.

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Just went to Sunday church service for the first time in seventeen years.  I got the chance to meet with the pastor and he's a very nice man, but sadly he's retiring after this week.

Never have I been to a church where the pastor shouts "Let's party" and dances around the room at the end of a service.

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Bought a new guinea pig!!

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I'm starting to wonder if the stress I've been undergoing the past year or so has been adversely affecting my value as a poster by making me more irritable and quick to default to the aspects of my personality and worldview that piss people off

I certainly don't see that here.

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I wish I was Bacon King.

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Looking like a very interesting summer ahead for me.  My town is sponsoring a program for high school students and recent graduates to go on a four-day mission in Oklahoma, which I am strongly thinking about taking.  I'll also be in South Carolina during the last week of August for vacation.

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So this is what's going on in my hood right now: http://www.reviewjournal.com/news/fire-rescue/kyle-canyon-under-mandatory-evacuation

This was the view from my driveway this afternoon:



We evacuated about 5pm, and are staying with friends for now.  Local news says we could expect to be forced out for 7-10 days.

Whoa. Real sorry to see that. Also, seems that aside from the forest fire, you live in a pretty nice place. Looks like it could be the cover of a movie honestly. Hope that your area can be spared. Beautiful place.

Indeed, that's a very nice view aside from all the destruction.  I'll keep you and everyone else near there in my thoughts.

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i have a food baby guys

When's it due?

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Already raged about this on Facebook, but someone who I thought was one of my "best friends" unfriended me and every other guy from her FB page because her boyfriend told her to.

Nothing in my life is normal anymore.

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Already raged about this on Facebook, but someone who I thought was one of my "best friends" unfriended me and every other guy from her FB page because her boyfriend told her to.

Nothing in my life is normal anymore.

I personally feel that if I am in a relationship that is serious, I should have no close female friends and my partner should have no close male friends, unless they were "best friends" for a long time before the relationship, which I presume was what happened to you. While I see the general point, her unfriending of you and literally every guy on Facebook is just irrational.

Yeah, this girl in particular was someone I had known for over three years.  I feel kind of hurt knowing that I wasn't good enough for her to tell her over-jealous boyfriend off, but I'm not going to lose sleep over something I'm not at fault for.  She's a lot younger than me, though, so hopefully she'll realize someday what a terrible mistake she's made.

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Found out today my mom will be saving $1000 per month on our health insurance costs (plus free dental checkups in January) thanks to that evil Obamacare law.

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Congratulations to you, Torie!

Found out today my mom will be saving $1000 per month on our health insurance costs (plus free dental checkups in January) thanks to that evil Obamacare law.

$1000 per month?

Yup!  Free eye checkups for a year too, I learned.  We still have to get out of this house within a year, but this will help us tremendously.  We're also getting a series of other benefits that I'm not going to disclose here.

Obamacare is good law.  My mom and I haven't been this happy in months.

Our Halloween Tree...

Halloween tree?  What kind of evil, parallel universe is this!?

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I had a test in Advanced Modern Japanese that didn't go at all well by my standards, but none of my classmates really did that well either, so our professor's going to just curve the grade to Hell and back and not give us a comparable test again. I'm still a little jumpy about my grades, because I'm also starting divinity school applications. (Yes, I'm going to divinity school. No, it's not on an ordination track.)

Congratulations, Torie! It sounds like you've really come to a good place in your life.

Which divinity school?