But now I'm pretty down ... 
I hope your father died quickly and peacefully, but even if he didn't he's at peace now. You'll remember only the good stuff, as the years go by. Take care of your mother and siblings.
He did. I was not there while it happened, but I was told it was quick and he didn't suffer. He already had a heart attack about 11 years ago and got some stents implanted into his heart back then and medication. But sometimes even the best medicine or the daily walking he did can't prevent a sudden heart attack. At least we had him for another 11 years around, because he could have already died back then. And he would not have been able to see his 3 grand-kids, 2 of them pictured below.
My mum was quite shocked at first, but because my brothers and my sister as well as many close relatives came to the house and comforted her, she is now taking it very strongly already and I'm 100% sure she'll overcome the loss in the next months, years - like we will.
It's amazing how well my little nephew and my 2 little nieces (3-5 years old) handled his death, especially considering that it was THEIR granddad with whom they liked to play each weekend. They painted some pictures and put it into the open coffin and my nephew - who likes tools like drilling machines and hammers etc. put field glasses into the coffin to say goodbye, so granddad can watch down from heaven. My brother almost broke down at the coffin while he put it in there.
I was also pretty emotional at the coffin, but because my dad had such a satisfied smile on his face like all problems had been wiped away that bothered him, I felt very relieved that he may have it better right now whereever he may be right now, heaven or somewhere else reborn etc.
The funeral will take place next week and I have to assist my mum in the coming days with a lot of bureaucracy that is involved with a death, so I'll probably won't be posting here for another few days or weeks - even though surfing the internet is a disctration for me after everything that happened, so other than in the first post I'll be back again here ...
Finally I want to thank all of you who wished us well and prayed for us, especially Dani - a good friend of mine from highschool for 4 years and who I went to prom with, but then went to med school and we didn't see each other for the next 6 years. She's a doctor now and works for the Red Cross and was among the Rescue Team that arrived at my parents house to help and comfort us. Not seen her for 6 years, will defintely do so again - we already made shure of that. Maybe it should have been this way. Probably she won't read this here, but THANK YOU Daniela.
So, folks, see you later when things have settled down a bit and we can go on.
